When you are grieving the sadness and all the emotions you can imagine are there: anger, frustration, exhaustion, irritability. and the list goes on.
There is not time frame for these feelings and I would never expect anyone to have a timeline.
What I will say is this (REMEMBER THERE IS NO ONE SIZE FITS ALL) if you find that these feelings are affecting you in a way that you can not communicate with others, people irk you non-stop, you are feeling anxious. You may want to seek some outside assistance.
This may be therapy, medication, prayers, a grief group, talking to a family member or friend.
For me I had to of course pray but I also had to talk to my therapist. I also joined a bereavement group and those group sessions helped tremendously because you are able to see that all these emotions you are having are normal when grieving. Listening to others experiences can be helpful.
Grief is weird because more than likely you have grieved before but the way new grief cuts is so so deep and painful. It is like someone reopened old wounds and dug them even deeper and poured acid onto them.
Honestly as much as prayer and counseling has helped me there are so many days when I want just scream into the void. There are a few times where I have screamed some.
And with all this sadness I can honestly say that as I grieve I am also enjoying the precious moments in life. If I find myself taking even the most mundane moments for granted I remind myself that there is some meaning in the moments as well.
No matter the season your life is in try to remember to hold on the small moments. the in between moments and the BIG moments. Hold onto them all.
I hope you like this poem from wonderful wordsmith Morgan Harper Nichols it reminds me some of the emotional grief rollercoaster.
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